"Eff Love"- Rihanna

SHE SAID IT BEST!

Siiggh.

I constantly am faced with this decision. My problem (which actually is not a problem at all) is that I like to forgive and forget. In "normal" relationships, this would be acceptable, but not when the other person NEVER forgets that ONE thing you did wrong. How am I suppose to know when the chances run out. Usually people say "Three Strikes and Your Out". Well with me, it's more like 10, 20, 30 strikes and you still have a chance! I wish someone could explain to me in detail what love is. What components REALLY make up love. I can sit here and tell you what I think love is. That flowers, and butterflies, and sex all make up this fairy tale love land. But to be honest-- LOVE = Lies, Deceit, Mistrust....I would like to think that all these aspects are perfectly normal in living a fairy tale relationship. Common, yes. Normal, NO! I am at the age where I'm suppose to be having fun right? I'm suppose to be flirting and giving guys my number and never picking up the phone when they call. Right? I'm suppose to be DATING. Something that young people do. Instead, I am in a committed relationship. One which involves joy, tears, money, lust, anger and every other emotion you could possibly think of. I'm not complaining (well I sort of am), I love the feeling of being loved. I love the excitement and anticipation of feeling the tight kiss or warm embrace of the BF. But I do NOT love the fact in order to get to those amazing kisses and warm embraces, I have to climb the ladder of stress, tears and occasional bitch fits. Most will feel as though it makes sense. To stop all of this mess, simply change your attitude. Nope! Sorry! I am NOT the type of person to let people get away with things. Your "my bads" are NOT going unnoticed. Because when I have an "oppsie" lord have mercy on my soul I am the worse person in the world. My mouth gets me in trouble a lot. When I'm angry it says things I really don't mean (well I DO really mean them, I just shouldn't be saying them.).

I don't want to say I'm unhappy. Because that would be a little drastic. I'm happy, sometimes of course. And other times, I am mad. I am sad. And often distraught. I wish I had a little book or something that told me all the answers to every relationship question I ever had. Ya know, kinda like the Staples "That was Easy" button. This, is NOT easy. At all. There are times I want to scream. There are times that I can't stop smiling. Mother dearest, you NEVER told me LOVE was going to be THIS difficult. This shit is hard as a muthafucka! They def don't make this crap peaches and cream. Well, I guess every lesson is one to learn. Right? We'll see.

Dear Black Men,

Can ya'll like step ya game up..PUHLEASEEE

BANGS NICKI!!!!! JESUS GIRL!!

UPDATE on B5!!

Ummm, maybe it was a bad picture day!?? They were def a lot cuter in the other pictures!! It's the hair. It's IS the hair.

B5 = YUMMAYY

So do you guys remember Diddy's group B5??? Well although they are VERY broke, they have grown up into some FIONEE young specimens.

How Much Sugar Does He ACTUALLY Have in His Tank??

Moving Too Fast?? Or Taking it ENTIRELY Too Slow?? Love at First Sight?? Or Just a Spring Fling?

I was always one to rush a relationship. I often times sit around with my bestie detailing the colors, location, and dress for my fairy tale wedding. Unfortunately, no matter how hard I try and how much I hint at it-- This girl right here isn't walking down the aisle or jumping over broom sticks any time soon. The reason for this post isn't to shed light on how my boyfriend moves slower then a snail embedded in peanut butter, but to finally lay out all the confusion that most of us face in our relationships. Are we moving too fast??? Or taking things entirely too slow and getting a tad bit bored? Is your love just a flame that is going to quickly die down in the beginning summer months? Well I don't have the answers to your misconstrued love lives. But I would like to share a story that has been the reason for this post in the first place. Luckily (hopefully), this chick isn't familiar with my blog and doesn't decide to take a gander. I was attending college with this girl. She was cool, we weren't BFF's or anything like that. We talked, we lived next to each other. I moved to the city campus and she stayed behind. Again, we talked via facebook here and there, but nothing too serious. This past summer she took part in the Biggest Loser, where she met her husband to be. Ok, this is where it may get a little complicated and my opinions may be a little biased. This girl met this boy about 6-8 months ago. They fall in love, go on a weight-loss journey together, boy proposes to girl about 9 months later. Girl says yes, girl leaves school in NYC and moves to ATL and finishes with boy. Love? Lust? or Fucking Crazy??? I know I fall in love easily. But I never felt like it was real love. Me and my boyfriend have been going out for a year. We've been good friends for about 2 years before that. 3 years gives me every right to tell him I love him. Is it love at first sight? Or just plain foolishness?? Somebody PUHLEASEEE let me know. I'm not knocking them for doing what they do. But I can only imagine the criticism that was thrown at them. Well, to each its own. Congratulations to them!!! But this is definitely something to think about. Hmmm.

I'm Excited, Because HE'S Excited.

If anybody remotely knows me they are well aware of the fact that I HATE sports, and most importantly HATES football. Well unfortunately my man's life revolves around watching, playing, smelling and eating football. So I try, REALLLLYYYY hard to follow the sport to the best of my ability. And I have been doing a pretty good job. I understand here and there what is going on. But I still do NOT until this day understand what the hell a blitz is. Needless to say, I am taking my boyfriend to his FIRST NFL game on sunday. I'm excited because HE'S excited. When I talked to him yesterday I could hear the excitement in his voice. Even though it is going to be like - DEATH degrees outside I am ready to stick it out and enjoy one of our many FIRSTS! Now whether or not I'm going to enjoy this game is a whole different story. I hope they serve other alcoholic beverages BESIDE beer. That way I will be well entertained and warmed up on the inside!! Great idea right???

BTW, I'll let you know how Sunday goes ;)

Her Boots = LOVVVVVVVVVVVVEEEEEEEE!!!!

These are pretty cool. I wouldn't mind adding a few of them to my collection.

Nike Holiday 2009 Air Flight Condor

There are HOT like FIYAH!! And I want!

Cutie.

Yeahh, I'm Not Gonna Hate..

They are SO cute!

:)

Christmasssss.

So after celebrating this extremely overated holiday I am GLAD it is over. Needless to say, it was a good one. As always the smiles on both my mother and grandmothers face was priceless!!!

Next up!! Is to see my BF fall out of his chair!! He's not into Christmas and we both kinda agreed that we weren't gonna get each other anything-- but my heart is entirely too big. So he got hooked up!

And he's coming home so that is the ONLY thing I really wanted. I'm super excited. He'll be home for some time. I'm taking him to his FIRST NFL game on Sunday!! To see his excitement at that game will probably make me cry! After that, our anniversary!! January is a big month for us.

YAY!!! :)

It's About Time..

LOVE this song. LOVE Mos Def.

I LOVE Creative People...

this dude makes music completely from the movie Up. Not to mention that Up is an AMAZING movie!

WHAT is Wrong With This Chick?

Danger done lost her mind. She needs to go ahead and do the same thing to her hairy ass cooch (pause).

BANGS GIRL!!!! BANNNNGGGSSSSS

LMAO

The Hoodest Chick in the WORLD!!!

First off, she's ONLY 16. And after some dudes tried to attack her on the F train (most disgusting train of life) she starting shanking muthafuckas!!!! Homegirl is straight up hood to get away from all of those dudes.

A Tribute to Movies from 2009.

this is so cool

Get IT China Man!

See more funny videos and funny pictures at CollegeHumor.

LMFAOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!

LOVE EVERYTHING ABOUT THIS!!!

Amerie is SO super pretty and makes the PERFECT couple with Fab. LOVE IT!

WAIT!

Givenchy Moroccan Studded Ankle Strap Sandals

Ok, I'm having shoegasms!

Christian Louboutin Ulona !!!

AMAZING!!!!!!!!

CUTE.

Mery Christmas. Although I Must Admit, It's Not Very Merry...

My man isn't here :(. Well I guess I will try my best to enjoy it with my annoying ass family. Have a safe and blessed one! Drink until you pass out. Tootz.

Amber Rose for VIBE!

When I first saw the shoot I was like BOO. VIBE did a HORRIBLE job with this..But ummmm, it is pretty freaking AMAZING!!!

ADORABLE!

Yes Please!! Thank You and Goodbye!!!!!!!!

Nike Air Jordan 1 Retro Silver 25th Anniversary Package

Yummmmm :)

LOVE THIS!

Just in Case You Missed the BEATDOWN!

a MESS!

Nick Cannon is OFFICIALLY the WORSE Dressed Celebrity *BOYFRIEND* in Hollyweird!

And Mariah Carey's camel toe comes in second! I use that term "celebrity" and "boyfriend" VERY loosely!! VERY!

Amber is starting to get back to her "ways" again. Can soemone fax her a memo and let her know that WE like classy rather then trashy. cc: me on it!! THANKS!

Men & Their Children

I had this conversation with myself the other day because of certain situation that arose the other day. Although I am not crazy about dating men with children...those who happen to cross into no man's land into fatherhood get props times ten when taking care of their child. There is nothing that touches me more then seeing a man take care of his child. And not with mone...I'm talking about caring and loving, playing, spending time...BEING A FATHER!!!! I LOVE THIS!!!!!!!! And often times it makes me cry. Heck, who am I kidding??? Often?? All the fucking time!!! Two times for the men who are in their childs life ALL THE TIME. Part-time dad's are SO 1992!!!!!

Kitsune 2010 Spring Suede Belts

These are SO cute. I am eager to see what other colors they have.

Bad Girls Club

I was pretty bummed with Prison Break went off air. I had no reason to watch tv anymore. And then Bad Girls Club made its way back to the Oxygen channel (how ironic: a channel devoted to promoting women in a positive manner??). Btw, I followed the end of the last season with Tanisha ( I belive that is how you spell her name), that season was aight. But someone recently put me on to this season!! Complete with the most hoodrated, nasty, trashy, disgusting bitches that Oxygen could find!!!! Let's go into detail.


We'll start off with the lovely Natalie...The hated, the worse, the enemy of the state!! The entire house HATES this girl because she parades around like this rich little whore who sleeps with men for BMW's and money. I'm gonna go ahead and voice MY opinion on this chick. Her head is WAY to high in the clouds. Her roundfaced ass and nappy edges needs to sit down and shut the FUCK up!! Like she bothers me..A LOT! She ALWAYS has something to say about EVERYTHING!!! Even when it simply isn't her business!!! Now she's got her ass beat on a few occasions, and also threw a few punches herself, but we have to admit-- the drama draws us in!! We (or atleast me) are intrigued by her hoe-nastics and lies. We make sure we pay close attention simply to catch what dude she's going to fuck next. Its obvious that they are desperately trying to keep this chick on the show for ratings. But honestly, she is REALLY getting on my fucking nerves.


Next up is the lovely Annie. People def compare Annie to me in many aspects. I don't really see it. I mean she is always worried about trying to help somebody "find themself". Damn bitch, worry about finding YOURSELF!She's part of the white girl clique who tends to talk tons of shit about people on that little private webcam crap but when shit hits the fan, she's sitting in the corner not saying a damn thing. I think she might be a ticking time bomb thats getting ready to explode at any point. Stay tuned as this butterfly flourishes into an EVIL BEAST! Sidenote: What is with the married man fetish??


Flo is my muthafucking BITCH!!!!!She is the realest chick in that house. Although her bulldagging ways are going to be the next issue, I love when she starts screaming at people!! She is straight up HOOD!!!! And EVERY bitch in that house is scared of her. Especially Portia's dry ass weave. Flo reminds me of that girl from Real World vs. Road Rules. The chick with the black hair, kinda chubby and talked HARD!!! Like every time she talked I swear she was spitting. Flo is cool as hell, and pause of the century but her body is like AMAZING!!! OMG, stop it Lauren...people are going to think you're gay!! :X


Kate or Malibu, whatever the fuck her name is...She's another nosy scared bitch!!!!!! And her damn blonde hair gets on my fucking nerves!!! She likes to talk soooooooooo much shit. But when one of these hood girls start popping off she is NO WHERE to be found. But then later on when everyone is sitting around talking about it here she comes putting her two cents in. I can't say I hate her, because she hasn't really been doing much for me to classify it as hate. But give it time, it's a coming.


Speaking of HATE!!! Portia gets absolutely NO respect from me in any way, shape or form. Two reasons. 1. Her weave is HORRID and 2. She is parading around on this reality show while her man is at home creeping and her daughter is watching her beat the shit out of people. Granted that Natalie talks at times when she shouldn't, there should be absolutely NO reason she continued to go on with that girl! It's understandble that all her aggravations just came out at once, but HELLO....Natalie was a big enough person (or just really scared) to ignore her ass. And Portia kept pushing her. HELL FUCK YEA, I would have said something about her child too. You are over here disrespecting my character, whether it was true or not, I'm doing me and I'm going to hit you where it hurts!!!!! Why the fuck would she care who Natalie is fucking?? Like really???? Natalie opening her legs have NOTHING to do with you or your child. And obviously you are caring for some strange reason. And Natalie is SO right!! The entire time you are worrying about this nigga that is fucking some other bitch back in West Buck Fuck, and you haven't said two damn words about your CHILD!!! Fuck that nigga, worry about your kid. And then she says "I'm protecting her". No sweetie, protecting your child does NOT involve expoiting yourself on a national television show. Portia is worrying about her child becoming like Natalie?? HA!! She nneeeeddss to worry about her child seeing her look like an angry, black crazy bitch on national television! Ughhhh, every time I see her face...She just pisses me the fuck off. SO super happy she is going home.


Kendra, Kendra, Kendra. Where do I begin?? Do I start with her stupidity or her desperate need for money and fame. I have never in a million years seen someone that would do something as drastic as keeping a bitch who decked you in the face around. I mean she is clutching on to Natalie for dear life. This chick knows a bunch of D-Listers. Who the hell cares about Marcus (Miles) from Moesha?? That girl clearly has some issues. Like Gaga says "Fame Monster". She is STARVING for fame and attention. And she is ugly and her weave is dryer then a Arby's turkey sandwich!


Amber is so strange. She is so old school. When they went to the club and she had her little black 1 inch pumps on I was like OMG, is she serious???? But yes, she was!!!!

So all-in-all I sooooooo want to be on the Bad Girls Club!! I think I would be the perfect candidate and I would be able to put all those bitches in their place!!!!! Soo look out for me in Season 6 :)

The Most Disgusting Thing in the World!!!

When a girl has INTENSE BOOB SWEAT! Like if your cleavage is glistening and its NOT with glitter...that shit is NASTY!!! Get you a baby wipe and go in the bathroom and handle that. We wouldn't want anybody to slip on your boob sweat!

Exhibit A:

OH!!!! I AM MAD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

So for the past three days people at my job have been talking about doing a potluck lunch/dinner today!! I stressed that I did not want to participate but after practically begging, I finally agreed. So last night I go home and decorate the tree and do Christmas-like things to prepare for the holiday. When I was finished, I watched Bad Girls Club (THE BEST SHOW EVER) and baked some mac and cheese. So I come in this morning and one girl asked if I brought anything??? I said yes, mac and cheese...She was like "Well I'm going to Whole Foods to buy some pie"....Fine, fair enough. So I go downstairs and the MAIN person who was stressing me didn't bring SHIT!!! NOTHING, NADA!!! That pissed me off more then anything, because not only was he the one who set this whole thing up, he was the one who was bitching for me to bring something. So this luncheon turned into a dinner, at like 5 pm when everyone is leaving. So someone who was suppose to be participating called me up and said she was leaving early so they are gonna eat my mac and cheese for lunch. BITCH!!!???? Like people really have some NERVE!!!! Greedy ass, cheap black people!!!!!!! And then someone said they were taking half of it home!! WTF!!! I am ten seconds from taking that shit out the fridge and taking it RIGHT back home with me. I would expect something like this from highschoolers but NOT grown ass ADULTS!!! I look like a fuckin fool!!!! And they get to sit back and relax and eat. What happened to the no bring, no eat rule??? SHIT!!!!! Someone could have called me last night and said "Don't worry about it!". People need to get a reality check. Greedy ass, selfish, self-centered FUCKS!

Lend a Helping Hand..Or Two..Or Three.

I'm always willing to give to those who I truly feel need it. It's not pity or anything ike that!! It's simply because I know that I could do without it. Chances are is I will probably go shopping with the money anyways. Although there are sometimes that I struggle, which is often...I have times where things are prosperous and I have a little something extra to spare. The worse thing for me to hear is that someone is cold, but I have AT LEAST 6-10 jackets in my closet. I hate to hear that someone is hungry, but I just had a big ol' lunch. It sucks in sooo many ways. I know I shouldn't be worried about it because these aren't my kids and I shouldn't have to take care of them. But Jesus!!! Can someone REALLY turn the other cheek on someone that is CLEARLY in need and go buy a pair of shoes or something??? It eats me up inside, especially if it's someone that I'm close with. The select friends that I have are like family. They are closer to me then my actual family!!! And for the holiday season I don't need a DAMN thing underneath my Christmas tree. Unless you can throw like 20 smiles from 20 different people under the tree!!!! It feels good to give. I never expect anything in return except the blessings from god!

Ok...These Bad Biscuits Scream Out "Pretty P"