I'm Hurting

I suck at controlling my emotions. But right now, I am an emotional ball of pitifulness (if that's even a word!?!?). I'm hurting. My heart, my head, my mind, body and soul. All of it hurts. Once again I opened my heart, this time, for two instances. I gave out my trust as well as my love, and in both instances I was left hanging. I always knew that when the time came, I would be left alone. And here I am...ALONE. This feeling is something that I haven't experienced in a really long time. But it's something I expected. Something that I knew was coming. Maybe this is some form of enlightenment!? Maybe this is the time where I can finally do me and not have to worry about anybody else. I'm hurt lovelys. I really am. But I know that once my tears stop falling..I will move on...I just hope it comes sooner then later.