UGHHHHH!!!!! : (

As the receptionist...When I pick up the phone I never really know who is on the other side unless they call my direct extension (I have caller id). So day in and day out I pick up this damn phone scared as shit as to who is going to be on the other side. I picked up..and it was him. At that moment I don't know whether to smile or throw the phone clear across the room for tricking me. Either way, at the end of the day...I will STILL have to pick up the phone. Needless to say, after being in this relationship for damn near 3 years, my heart ALWAYS seems to sink when I pick up the phone and hear his voice. I'm talking about straight up butterflies, no..fucking bricks being tossed all up in that bitch!!!!!!! Ughhhh.