Men Pt 2!!!!

I often gripe a lot about men and hell, I have every reason to do so. Some cause more anger and frustrations than others. But at the end of the day there is one man that simply completes me. We are like a roller coaster and we go up and down but sweet jesus at the end of the day he has every inch of my heart. It's crazy because he often posses just a lot of the qualities that the men who get on my nerve have. But this guy, my guy, well he's pretty fucking awesome. I've blogged about him a lot for the past 2 years and I just want to say don't you EVER feel like you can't change someone. You don't have to change their personality, you simply alter their ways so that you both make profitable contributions to the relationship. A lot, hold on, let me say that again, A LOT of people hate on our relationship. Ok, maybe not hate, shiiit what the fuck am I saying-- it's hating, because I'm so good to him. Because I don't have bills to pay and we can do anything we damn well please. Last night I went out with my man and we had a time in a half. Unlike most couples or people dating, the simple things allow us to have the best time ever! We're going to Miami in a few weeks...and everybody and their fucking cousin is hating because my dad is paying for it! HA! I know, he's lucky. :). I titled this post "Men Pt.2 !!!!" because the other day I verbally expressed my disgust for most men. Well, this man, does disgust me at times, but I think it's safe to say, I'm so deep, down in love that I have nothing to worry about. I'm excited for my Miami trip. Not because it's Miami, but because I'm going to be in Miami with my boyfriend. Does it get ANY better than that?????!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!? I can't freaking WAIT for the next 3 weeks. I'm like thinking of what to pack already! Life goes through ups and downs but never not once do I regret ANYTHING I do. I'm living life...to the fullest. I'm young and ready! AHHHH, so freaking excited.

MEN!!!

This post is dedicated to MEN. Not just one man, ALL MEN!!! The living, breathing species of a man! I want to start out by saying that it's sickening to the fact that a man can't be "just" your friend because some where down the line he becomes attracted to you. When we established our friendship, we didn't make a deal to fuck in a few months. You can't get mad at me when I deny you because that's never what I wanted in the first place. Secondly, deleting me off of your social networking site because I've said something or I've ignored you, well that's a bitch ass move and you should just bend on over and let another nigga eat your pussy, because that is EXACTLY what you are-- PUSSY! It doesn't bother me. I have TONS of real friends on my back. It simply lets me know that your character is a weak ass muthafucka.

If you haven't noticed I have a bone to pick with men. They have all rubbed me the wrong way. They have all belittled me and insulted my intelligence. They have lied, they have played me and frankly, I'm tired of being the puppet, it is time for me to be the puppet master. It is time for me to be the one who walks all over them. It is MY turn.

For the record, I was told that I thought I was better than everyone. I was told that I walk with my head in the clouds. Well, from every man that I have had ANY sort of communication with, YES you DAMN right I am better than them. And until men start acting like "MEN", I will ALWAYS be fucking better than them. Get your dicks out your ass and BE something rather than just fucking doing something. Until then, I will continue to make more money, I will continue to be smarter, and I will continue to be sexier. Get like me or fucking get LEFT!

Ok..

So I haven't been on this blog in months and it's pretty pitiful that the only time I do make a come back is when I'm feeling some type of way. Let's not get it twisted..this is FAR from a comeback...i just need something or someone that will listen to me.

A lot has happened and a lot hasn't happened over the past months. I actually am writing on my blog today because I FINALLY have realized that there is only ONE person who understands me and needless to say that person is no longer in my life. It hurts when someone turns their back on you after you gave them your trust. It hurts reallll bad. Through my current situation, through my current aggravation and anger I simply want to just reach out to him and I want him to make me laugh..something that he was always so good at. He understands me. He understands who I am and what I do. I have NEVER met anyone who understands me on the level that he does. That is why he was my bestfriend. Emphasis on "was". It's sad...and I'm sad...and I miss him a lot some times. And I catch myself wanting to call or text him. But I'm not stupid. I'm not going to subject myself to that shit! I've learned that you can't have your cake and eat it to. It's merely impossible. I live a life where I will always be misunderstood. But that's ok with me. That's perfectly fine! I have NO problem being the brightest crayon in the box. What the fuck ever....I will continue to do me. My success is measured by the pack of haters that follow behind me.

NOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Lloyd cut his hair!!!! :(...that's what MADE Lloyd.

My Favorite!!!!

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I've been neglecting La La Land BIG time and unfortunately the only time I really get back into the mix of things is when I have something to say! I won't go into details, nor will justify the excuse of self-pity. I simply want to state that I have been pushed and pushed and pushed to the point where I finally fell off the cliff. I held on to every rock and every ledge constantly trying to pull myself up but still, I tripped, fell and stumbled!!!! Speaking with a fellow co-worker who is maybe about 10-12 years older than me she stated that men never really grow up...EVER!! Does that make it ok for them to act like selfish, immature, heartbreaking bastards? DEFINITELY NOT!!!!!! I feel in love with someone I really cared for. Someone who I worshiped the ground he walked on. We went through SO much and ultimately he was my first true love! I can cry about it like I normally do, or I can call this a lesson learn. I've constantly stuck by him through ALL his endeavors in hopes that I will no longer be his option, but rather his priority. After a year and 9 months I have learned SO much, both good and bad that will continue to stick with me as I grow. I am sad. And every inch of my body feels hurt because I love that boy to death. Not just as a boyfriend, but as EVERYTHING! But sometimes you just have to do what's good for you. What's next? I guess I'm going to focus on myself. Make things right with ME! It is definitely time for some "Me Time". I'm not even thinking about love. It is going to take me a LONG time to get over this one. I mean VERY long time. But I'm strong. I can get through anything I put my heart to. The worst part of it all is simply remembering. I would pay BIG money to just wipe my memory away. That's when I become sad. When I think about the times he made me laugh, the times he dried my tears. UGHHH!!!! I fucking miss him SO SO SOOOO much. But I have to do this for myself. He was giving me the time of day that I needed and deserved. With that being said. I'm single. I'm not looking. I'm not ready to mingle. I'm just single and alone.

Lady Gaga & Marc Jacobs for V Magazine

You guys don't know how much I absolutely ADORE this!!!!!! I love it SO much that I want to make it my background!!!! AHHHHH!!!!

Ok. Ok..ANOTHER ONE!!!!

I fucking DIIIIEEEDDD!

Please Don't Show This To My Man...

As fine (and I do mean fine) as homeboy is..this is complete and utter ignorance and he should be banned from youtube. He needs to stop polluting the minds of senseless men looking for a cop out!!

He must be a man whore. A fine man whore..

Sounds to me like an excuse for being a cheap ass. Homeboy probably got nexted because he was too fucking cheap to afford a wedding.

I Am IN LOOOOVVEEE With These Little Boys

Not the nasty Diggy Simmons love. But these little boys are so powerful and uplifting!

SMH. People Just Can't Keep Themselves Out of Trouble

T.I. and Tiny were arrested last night for being in possession of weed. SMMFH!!! The bail was set at 10 g'z which is fucking ridiculous for weed. This is NOT gonna look good for T.I....

Casion G-Shock G-001 series

Cee- Lo- Fuck You Video

LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE!

To Do List

1. Be the best girlfriend I can be.
2. Be the best friend I can be.
3. Be the best sister I can be.
4. Be the best daughter I can be.
5. Be the best person I can be.

Is He 18 Yet!?!?!?

TK OOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!

LMFAOOOOOOOOOOOO!!! I have NEVER laughed so hard in my life. Not because this is funny, but it was a pussy ass move for him to go ahead and hit her. But the commentary in the back was pure hilarity! SMH!!! Brooklyn is WILDDDIIINNNGGG!!!!!

Dear Summer,

Dearest Summer,

It's been real, but I realize you will only be around for a few more weeks. The mornings are getting cold, and the rain is washing away any bit of sunshine you have left to offer. I know, I should expect this, you part from me every year and make way for Fall. No more sunny beach days, and glowing tans. I now have to pack my shorts and sandals and opt for my coat and gloves. Sigghh, until next season!



Love Always,

Your Most Dedicated Beach Bum!

Original Fake KAWS Pinocchio and Jiminy Cricket T-Shirts

I want one of these SOOOOOO bad!!!!!!! And then I saw the price via Invincible.com and I quickly changed my mind ($2,580). No thank you.

White People Make the Coolest Inventions!!!

This family built an under water fort at the bottom of a lake!!! VERY COOL!!! I really don't see the point of it,being that the actual fort is reallllyyy small, but hell, the idea is pretty dope!

Christina M. & Teyana T.

WOW!! This is the best I've seen Teyana Taylor look...like EVER!!! I think she has finally found her calling. Btw, Christina M. looks ABSOLUTELY flawless!!!! Wooo chillllddd, The Dream fucked up something serious!! Smh @ men!

How Muslims are treated in America

Wow! this was such insightful commentary! It goes to show that America still has such an ignorant way of thinking! Touching!!

Cee-Lo- Fuck You

Ok ok, I know I posted this video a few days ago but I am SO absolutely in love with this song!! I can not WAIT to hit the gym and work out to this bad boy. WHY did 50 hop on the track? Pleaseeee, he messed the track up! I'm waiting for Wale and go ahead and handle this shit like he's suppose to!! Come on baby!! Do what you do boo!

SWEET JESUS!!!

I never use to think so before, but Ocho Cinco is starting to look rather tasty to me!!!

Caspa & Mr. Hudson “Love Never Dies”

One Night Stand

One Night Stand from Jack Tew on Vimeo.

I would have loved to starred in this video!!! This would be a great improv game!

Bullet Rings

Pemba: making a football from a condom

Ok, I understand the love and dedication for the sport. But I can think of WAY more things those condoms can be used for. ESPECIALLY in Africa. I don't know whether to embrace the fact that this little boy created a soccer ball from a condom or be extremely scared over the fact that maybe some Africans feel as though condoms should be used for toys rather than protecting themselves from aids. Interesting video none the less.

Cee-Lo Green – F**K YOU

HAHAHA!! I absolutely love Cee-Lo! He's such a great artist. And this song = LOVE!

18th Anniversary of Hurricane Andrew

So I was surfing the web when I came across a post of the 18th Anniversary of Hurricane Andrew. Whoooaaa. 18 years!?!?!?! I feel old because I remember it like it was yesterday! I remember my entire family croutched at the top of the stairs watching this one little portable television. Man, I can't believe it was 18 years ago. Anywho, I had no clue it was the second costliest hurricane to strike the east coast. Damages totaled about $23 billion dollars at the time. I'm going to make a shirt that says "My House Survived Hurricane Andrew"..HA! :)

I Am OFFICIALLY In Love!!!

I KNNNEEEWWW IT! I just knew Romeo was going to be a HUGE hit when he got older. And ladiessss, he is NOW 21 years old!!! This boy is fioooneeee. Although he still posses that "Lil" Romeo feel. Ya know, I can only picture him rapping to that A,B,C 1,2,3 song.

Men....#ughhh

I hate how men treat a girl like they are a piece of meat. It just can't be "Hey Lauren" or "There's Lauren, Was Good Girl". There always has to be some out of the line comment that they THINK is gonna gas my head up and in all actuality it just pisses me the fuck off. I can understand if I were one of those girls who purposely attracted that attention. One of those girls who set out and crave for a man's kind words. As always, I can do bad all by myself. The only person I need to tell me that I'm beautiful is MY man. I feel kind of disrespected when these guys have these so-called "crushes" on me. They KNOW I have a man and yes, I should be flattered but honey, say what you got to say and keep it moving! These are people who I see on a regular. People who come into my job damn near every day. It irks me. I feel like it's disrespectful. For example, there is this guy who comes in and fixes the lights in our office. Every time he comes he has a slick comment to say. The other day he said " I need some of you in my life", today, in front of TONS of people, including our facility manager he says "There goes my wifey!" Ummmm, hellooo!!!!! And then if I don't say hi back all of a sudden I'm the bitch, I'm the rude receptionist. Dude, you know my status, so it's like a slap in the face to my man that you want to keep getting at me. UGHHHH, I wish men would just go ahead and get the fucking hint!!!!!!! Sweet jesus.

Well EXXCCUUUSSEEEE Me Miss CiCi. Do I Smell Some Confidence Cooking in That Kitchen of Yours!?!?!?!?!?!?

The Little Mermaid Collection Shark Jaw Matching Ring and Bracelet

Btw, I L.O.V.E this!

rag & bone Crafted by Timberland Boot Company

I freaking love these boots!!!! WHY doesn't my man wear shit like this!? Do you know the THANGSSS I will do to him. Sweet Jesus mother of Preppy.

Ice Guns!!

CLOT x Disney

LOVVEEEE this collaboration!!!!!! No, I seriously LOVE IT!!! I want like sooo many of these shirts!

PETA...

I'm a meat eater. I love steak, chicken, pork..I love it all. Never tasted tofu in my life and I REFUSE to ever do so. I understand that PETA is trying to..ok, I actually don't understand what PETA is trying to do. How long has this organization been around??? And how many people STILL eat meat and buy chinchilla coats? PETA's cause is like asking half of NYC to stop breathing. Please, let's get over it. They SERIOUSLY go through drastic measures to prove their point. Almost to the point where it's extremely offensive. Hmmm, maybe I should start an activist group that touches upon the fact of PETA's members and their severe malnourishment. #justsayin.

NOT to mention it was probably 90 degrees in Times Sq. that day. PETA should worry more about the safety of their followers and supporters rather then trying to stop the world from eating meat. Don't piss me off today!!!! I'm TIRED!!!1

I Shall Take a Gandar When I Get Home

Mixtape features Kid Kudi, Kanye, Mr Hudson,Common...

adidas Originals by Originals Jeremy Scott Fall/Winter 2010 Penguin Sneaker

YES YES YESSSS!!!

Ok, I'm pumped!! I am super fucking excited. I've been on this whole "changing jobs" thing for a while but this is serious. This is the big shabang!!!! I applied for 3 jobs today. All of which I am DYING to get an interview. If I get an interview I can win ANYONE over!!! PLEASE, PLEASE, PLEASE!!! The first 2 jobs are at CBS. Ya hear me??? CBS!!! Even though this job is something as trivial as an Administrative assistant the room for growth is disgusting!! This is where I want to be. This is where I feel like my life should be!! CBS!!! Hellooooo!!!!!! All I want from them is the opportunity to give me an interview. From there, I can do the magic. The third application I submitted was to the Modell's corporate headquarters. Yeah, Modell's Sporting Goods. I feel like that would be a fun place to work at. Not to mention the massive discount I'll probably receive (baby, we got ALL your football stuff covered..lol). This is SO freaking scary!! I don't want to wait! I want an answer like RIGHT now!!!!!!!! I just want someone to call me and say "We would like to meet with you tomorrow". Ughhhhhh. Someone hurry up and get back to me!

Ummmmmm?????????????

Ok, isn't this the dude from My Brother and Me??? WHAT the FUCK happened!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?! God forgive me if he's sick but DAMN!

#Dapper

Kanye is the freshest man I think I've EVER met. Well, I've never met him. But..ya know!

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!

NERF Longstrike Sniper Rifle - longest NERF Gun

Ok, this is the Grand Papa of all NERF Guns and I want!!!! Can you imagine ultimate victory with one of these bad boys!!!!

Telephone- The Office Version

I can TOTALLY relate. Well, minus the cluttered cubicle setting and the damn near naked dancing..but it's cute none the less.

It Has Gone TOOOOOOOO Far!!!! A Marching Band Cover for the "Bed Intruder Song!?!?!?!"

I must admit, it sounds great!! But helloooooo, everyone is putting SO much emphasis on the damn remixes that are going around, has anyone found the Bed Intruder yet???

Btw, I can't lie, I'm a fan. And I'm SUPER stocked that Antoine Dodson is following me on Twitter :)

Ok, So WHEN is Kanye's Album Dropping!?

Hopefully sooner than later, I miss his cocky ass!

adidas Originals by Originals Jeremy Scott JS License Plate

#JeremyScott=LOVE

adidas Originals x Star Wars Han Solo SL72

Said I Promise To Never Fall In Love With A Stranger
You're All I'm Thinking Of
I Praise The Lord Above
For Sending Me Your Love
I Cherish Every Hug
I Really Love You

#FUCKaBITCHnamedSALLIE

Sorry Sallie....I'll be someone in SoHo spending the the $56 g's I owe you!! !::insert evil laugh::

Nike Lunar Elite Trail Mid

I really like the colorway!!!!! I'd rock it!

FABULOUUUUSSSSSSSS

Rihanna = PERFECTION!!! She can make NO mistakes in my book. I'm not being bias because I'm #TeamRih until the day I die. I'm just saying...She is amazing!

"Women in Hollywood"- Fearless Magazine

I'm all for being "Pro-Black" and all that black mumbo jumbo stuff. But there is NOTHING, and mean NOTHING that irks my nerves more than when people try to justify shit with being black. Vanity Fair recently dedicated their cover to Hollywood's HOTTEST Stars. Hottest, meaning actually doing something with themselves and their career. There wasn't any black girls, so Fearless Magazine goes ahead and puts THEIR spin on Hollywood's Hottest. Ok, seriously. NATURI!?!?!?!?!?! The chick is making her debut in that Bow Wow movie that hasn't even come out yet and now she's Hollywood's best!?! Lauren London, the LAST person that needs to be on a cover of ANYTHING as a positive role model. The chick from my wife and kids who disappeared off the face of this earth. KYLA PRATT!!!!! Really now???? People base shit off of talent. And NONE of these girls have had a KILLER roll that is deserving of a Vanity Fair cover. There are several black actresses who are paving their way and doing an excellent job with it. Tia is the ONLY girl who I can say is doing something with The Game. Magazines and black culture need to stop playing themselves. It's not a competition. We don't see Justin Bieber on the cover of Black Beat or The Source. Magazines are writing towards their general audience. And I'm sure Vanity Fair isn't supporting babies out of wedlock to a rapper who overdoses on cough syrup and is currently behind bars. #justsayin

So I've been writing a lot lately. Something that I stopped doing for a while because I didn't really have a "muse" so to speak! But now I feel like I am back in action and I am better than ever. I have a lot that I am currently dealing with. Better to get it out on paper, eh!? As I progress I will post some things on my blog so you guys can see what I'm working with. As always, I applaud my loyal readers of La La Land!!! You guys are the only ones who like to listen!!

Double Kisses

WOW!!!!!!!!!

So we're all familiar with this whole "Bed Intruder" stint that has been all over the news. Well after they auto-tuned it, I ran across John and Lindsey who actually made the song sound good. Take a listen!

SMH!

As most of you have read, Fantasia was admitted into the hospital for overdose of sleeping pills and attempted suicide. Now, Fantasia has had a rough life, and I applaud her for overcoming that and moving on and embracing her new found fame. I fucks with Fantasia, she is an amazing artist. But all I have to say is I feel like after this stint, she will DEFINITELY be making a comeback. I have faith in the girl. She just got caught up with the wrong group of people. Smh. Fame ain't for everybody.

Nike Sportswear Presents: 1LOVE Bronx With Cory Gunzr

Things You Shouldn't Share on Facebook

There comes a time when your social networking sites, well..shouldn't be very social. We like to hear about daily activities that go on in your life so we could chime and and comment. But it crosses the line when you begin to share information that makes you look crazy, scary or straight up pitiful. I've decided to generate a list of things that should NOT be shared within the social networking community.

1. Do not ask for rides via facebook. That is pitiful. That is a cry for a help! You have a call log full of people that may or may not have access to a car. And please don't go into detail as to why you need a ride. For example, I noticed some fuckery this morning when one of my facebook friends posted this status:
I HAVE AN INTERVIEW @3, I WAS WONDERIN IF SOME ONE COULD GIVE ME A RIDE, CUZ THE WEATHER NOT LOOKIN TO NICE..I WOULD GLADLY APPRECIATE IT... #fail!!!!

2. Ladies, your period is YOUR period. PUHLEASEEEE don't publicly announce that you are on the drip drip. That is something that is disgusting and should be kept private. Cramps, hunger indulgences, those all point to ONE thing. We all know how man tend to stray away from us during that time of the month. So hell, why bring that negative attention towards you.

3.Your work schedule is something that is ok to share to a certain extent. Granted Facebook is a place for friends, you know DAMN well you don't know EVERYONE like that. I've ran across status's that say "On my way to work from 10-6 pm. I take a break from 2-3 pm and I'll be in the back office all day". Now please tell me. Is ANY of that necessary? You basically just gave a PERFECT opportunity for someone to effortlessly kill your ass.

4. Nothing irks my nerves more then those status's that talk to God. If God happens to have a Facebook can someone please send me a link to his page.

What Dreams May Come...

I got some really disturbing news yesterday. And that could maybe explain the reason I was M.I.A! But what was even more strange is the dream I had. I'm not one to believe that dreams predict the future or anything like that. Hell, after seeing Inception, dreams are just distant memories to me. But last night I had the strangest dream. I remembered just about EVERY aspect of it which NEVER occurs. Usually when I dream that I am doing something with someone, I never have a distinguished face. It's someone that I know, but it's never all of them. Or later on in the dream it changes to someone else. But this dream I had was bananas. I would like to blame it on the Bacardi Mojito I had before I went to bed last night, but that's doubtful. Here's how it went:

I vaguely remember the beginning of the dream. But what I do remember is that I was in a classroom. My boyfriend and this dude who was a blood was shooting at each other. The Blood guy shot me in my arm. But I didn't bleed, I just sat ran. It was my old high school, so from what I remember, I ran down the stairs that led to the parking lot. My high school was only two floors, but I felt like I was running. And my boyfriend was somehow following behind me. When I finally reached the outside my boyfriend was PISSED! "He was screaming at me saying that this dumb ass nigga dropped his gun and now he's mad at you, now he wants to kill you". The entire dream was spent running and hiding. At one point we were hiding in this make-shift hut with water mist with a bunch of other people. I was laying down trying to stay low when these two white boys yanked my key that's around my neck and pulled out a "Wanted" poster with the picture of my key necklace matching. At that point my boyfriend began shooting. And we started to run again.

What was strange about this dream is that my boyfriend will NEVER in a MILLION years run from something like this. And what made things TEN times worse is that this morning I was so bothered by the dream and so bothered by the fact that it stuck with me, I went ahead and referred to a dream dictionary. Sorry, but Inception wouldn't have helped with this one. I looked up the two things that were constant in my dream. Running and guns. The running symbolized that I am feeling trapped or pressured in a real life relationship. It can also mean that I feel stressed by school or work. WHAT THE FUCK!!!!!! From reading that I KNEW that dreams really do symbolize something. From there I went ahead and inquired on what the guns symbolized. The guns may mean that I feel pressured by a male person in my life. It can also represent anxiety and the need for protection. There were two things that popped up in both interpretations. PRESSURED!!!!!!!! Ok, maybe I should go ahead and explain to you what's currently going on in my piss poor life. My boyfriend is leaving for a new school. A new school that is VERY far away from me. And after the thousands of tears I cried, I then have this dream. What the hell could this pressure mean?? Obviously he is the male figure, but what is he pressuring me to do. It was kind of funny because this morning on the train I kept telling myself that I had such an anxious feeling. Like I can feel anxiety stating to set in.

I HATE everything today. And if I continue to have these dreams then it's going to drive me absolutely CRAZY!

adidas Originals x Star Wars Fall/Winter 2010 Attitude Hi “Jabba The Hutt”

NO!!!!! STOP ITTTTTT!!!!!!!!!! PUHLEASEEE!!!! I CAN'T!

Ughhh. Williow PUHLEAASEEE GIRL!

VIDEO FABBB PART DOS!!!!!!! Eminem ft. Rihanna- Love the Way You Lie

DEEP!

btw, i LOVE rihanna.
#justsayin

Video Fabb!!!!!!! Kanye West- Power

Go ahead Haters!!!! Start talking.

I Have NEVER Seen Someone Look SO Fabulous Preggers in a Bikini!!

My girl A.K!!!!!! LOOOOVVVEEEEEEEE IT!!!!!!!!!!!

Stussy Summer Collection