Men Pt 2!!!!

I often gripe a lot about men and hell, I have every reason to do so. Some cause more anger and frustrations than others. But at the end of the day there is one man that simply completes me. We are like a roller coaster and we go up and down but sweet jesus at the end of the day he has every inch of my heart. It's crazy because he often posses just a lot of the qualities that the men who get on my nerve have. But this guy, my guy, well he's pretty fucking awesome. I've blogged about him a lot for the past 2 years and I just want to say don't you EVER feel like you can't change someone. You don't have to change their personality, you simply alter their ways so that you both make profitable contributions to the relationship. A lot, hold on, let me say that again, A LOT of people hate on our relationship. Ok, maybe not hate, shiiit what the fuck am I saying-- it's hating, because I'm so good to him. Because I don't have bills to pay and we can do anything we damn well please. Last night I went out with my man and we had a time in a half. Unlike most couples or people dating, the simple things allow us to have the best time ever! We're going to Miami in a few weeks...and everybody and their fucking cousin is hating because my dad is paying for it! HA! I know, he's lucky. :). I titled this post "Men Pt.2 !!!!" because the other day I verbally expressed my disgust for most men. Well, this man, does disgust me at times, but I think it's safe to say, I'm so deep, down in love that I have nothing to worry about. I'm excited for my Miami trip. Not because it's Miami, but because I'm going to be in Miami with my boyfriend. Does it get ANY better than that?????!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!? I can't freaking WAIT for the next 3 weeks. I'm like thinking of what to pack already! Life goes through ups and downs but never not once do I regret ANYTHING I do. I'm living life...to the fullest. I'm young and ready! AHHHH, so freaking excited.

MEN!!!

This post is dedicated to MEN. Not just one man, ALL MEN!!! The living, breathing species of a man! I want to start out by saying that it's sickening to the fact that a man can't be "just" your friend because some where down the line he becomes attracted to you. When we established our friendship, we didn't make a deal to fuck in a few months. You can't get mad at me when I deny you because that's never what I wanted in the first place. Secondly, deleting me off of your social networking site because I've said something or I've ignored you, well that's a bitch ass move and you should just bend on over and let another nigga eat your pussy, because that is EXACTLY what you are-- PUSSY! It doesn't bother me. I have TONS of real friends on my back. It simply lets me know that your character is a weak ass muthafucka.

If you haven't noticed I have a bone to pick with men. They have all rubbed me the wrong way. They have all belittled me and insulted my intelligence. They have lied, they have played me and frankly, I'm tired of being the puppet, it is time for me to be the puppet master. It is time for me to be the one who walks all over them. It is MY turn.

For the record, I was told that I thought I was better than everyone. I was told that I walk with my head in the clouds. Well, from every man that I have had ANY sort of communication with, YES you DAMN right I am better than them. And until men start acting like "MEN", I will ALWAYS be fucking better than them. Get your dicks out your ass and BE something rather than just fucking doing something. Until then, I will continue to make more money, I will continue to be smarter, and I will continue to be sexier. Get like me or fucking get LEFT!

Ok..

So I haven't been on this blog in months and it's pretty pitiful that the only time I do make a come back is when I'm feeling some type of way. Let's not get it twisted..this is FAR from a comeback...i just need something or someone that will listen to me.

A lot has happened and a lot hasn't happened over the past months. I actually am writing on my blog today because I FINALLY have realized that there is only ONE person who understands me and needless to say that person is no longer in my life. It hurts when someone turns their back on you after you gave them your trust. It hurts reallll bad. Through my current situation, through my current aggravation and anger I simply want to just reach out to him and I want him to make me laugh..something that he was always so good at. He understands me. He understands who I am and what I do. I have NEVER met anyone who understands me on the level that he does. That is why he was my bestfriend. Emphasis on "was". It's sad...and I'm sad...and I miss him a lot some times. And I catch myself wanting to call or text him. But I'm not stupid. I'm not going to subject myself to that shit! I've learned that you can't have your cake and eat it to. It's merely impossible. I live a life where I will always be misunderstood. But that's ok with me. That's perfectly fine! I have NO problem being the brightest crayon in the box. What the fuck ever....I will continue to do me. My success is measured by the pack of haters that follow behind me.