Monday. In a Nutshell. A Cracked, Dirty, Nasty, Smelly Nutshell.

I already knew how my Monday was going to be. I ALWAYS know how Monday's are...HORRIBLE! And you guessed it, that was JUST how my Monday was. It started out a little sour, but got worse as the day progressed. At around 3:30, I was MAD. REALLY MAD!!! But I was at work so I had to keep my composure. But after a while I said "fuck it" I can't take this crap anymore. I let it all out. And around 5:00, I was in the verge of tears...so I did something that not only wasn't allowed, but also could have gotten me in lots of trouble. I left work. I didn't turn the phones off, I didn't even clock out. I was THAT pissed. I needed to get home..AND FAST!!! Anyone and Anything that was in my way was quickly pushed. I couldn't take this crap. So once I finally got on the express bus, my stomach started hurting worse then I could EVER imagine. I never felt a pain such as that one. Mind you.. I still had about an hr to get home. Once I finally got home, I took 3 tylenol's and took the BIGGEST shit of life and layed in my bed ignoring EVERY phone call and text that came my way. I eventually fell asleep with my phone on silent. I woke up at around 10pm, and from there....I sat...and thought..and thought and thought and thought..the next thing you know it was 4:30 am. I had to be up at 6 am. I took advantage of the last few hrs of sleep. In between my thought process..I laughed, I cried, I talked to the one who made me mad, and then...I thought some more. Did I come up with a solution?? No.Today is a new day, do I know how to access the situation? No. So all those long hours of thinking-- was pointless. Just left me right where I was in the beginning. Because my Monday was THIS horrible, Tuesday was soon to follow...EXACTLY the same way. I'm surprised I got to work at a decent time. I was soooooo late. Like REALLY late leaving my house. I'm annoyed, hungry, tired, horny, hot....all of the above. And speaking of hungry-- i find it REALLY fucked up that I leave food in my drawer and when I come back it's gone. I CAN'T, NOT TODAY!!